Us descendants of African kidnap victims...
who were betrayed by other black people...
Meaning the ancestors were tricked, captured, stolen, shipped, abused, raped, bought, bred, forced worked and indoctrinated into a previously minor yet predatory monotheistic faith that had risen to cult status after originating in the middle east, gaining prominence once the story of a prophet carpenter fisher of men, killed by authority figures and rebirthed as a zombie making leader of the poor and disenfranchised, was added and the support of a hallucinating roman overlord who fell off his horse on the battle field screaming about seeing a cross in the sky, decided to spread it like a plague of epic proportions far and wide...
These same African forced workers, who, after centuries of living alongside their captors in substandard conditions, working for them, suffering untold hardships at their hands and being forced to worship the above mentioned malevolent, jealous and insecure (phallic) gawd(at the)head with walking dead zombie son and intact hymen sporting, limp and pathetic mother, the triad of personalities at the center of the of the afore mentioned desert cult that, by the time the kidnappers of the Africans dragged their cult/death worshiping patriarchal faith across the sea, it had risen to the status of official cult of all kingdoms, with a few variations, in the pale fatherlands from whence they came...
Then, after many years, the enslaved Africans were sold a whopper of a lie about now being "free"...
Of course some had already run away or tried to by that time...
Some of the remaining survivors on being told of their "emancipation" cut and ran for all they were worth and got on boats...
But many stayed and attempted to buy in...
Which meant that they would now live in impoverished communities not too far from their former captors and that they and their descendants would be abused, raped, tortured, jailed, infected, tested on, murdered, terrorized, be (under) paid and repeatedly swindled...
All of which they would tolerate in order to get portions of the lands stolen from the original denizens of the now occupied lands...
Who were separate groupings of people who had welcomed the pale crazy cultists and had subsequently been lied to, tricked, swindled, abused, raped, massacred, tortured, humiliated, infected with diseases and chased off their land, their precious land which was now constructed by the afore mentioned followers of the jealous, insecure, virulent (male)gawd(phallic head) cult, as prime real estate...
Although now "free", the Africans still worked their fingers to the bone because the written words of the dead white zombie son of the phallicgawdhead they were taught to worship, the zombie son a pox on his name, birthed to a mother who had never fucked, as interpreted by the people who first stole the land and massacred its people, who then stole African HUMAN BEINGS and kept them as tormented captives...
Then kept the land and kept on tormenting its peoples...
Then "freed" the Africans only to keep on tormenting them which they mostly tried to ignore because they wanted 40 acres of (blood) land (whole nations of men, women and children were deeply harmed and humiliated and corralled and starved while trying desperately to protect) and a bruk down worker cousin of the horse with a name the thieving captors also like translate into spanish and use when they referred to the children who were born from their rapes of African female captives...
Yes, since pale, unwashed, disease spreading, malnourished with teeth falling out, thieves, liars, rapists, abusers, criminals spoke highly of the link between the favour of their overrated gawd, pathological overwork and the worth of the individual...
The "freed" people, taught to understand the afore mentioned toothless, unwashed, backward murderous lying bastards as the proud epitome of humanity, much greater than themselves...
So recently having been worked to the bone, took to the idea of compulsive extreme workaholism on behalf of these occupiers understood as (im)moral compasses and their god, like fish take to water...
Of course, there were other ideas which these "freed" African mass kidnapping victims, stockholm sufferers had also been forced to absorb from the afore mentioned merciless, rude, evil bred right in the bone human buyers...their supposed betters...along the way...
Ideas such as work for pay under the supervision of those who understand themselves as your betters eventually leading to an upwardly mobile change in circumstances for those who break their backs and work long hours
to the worth and marriageability of the individual
to believing in hierarchical power structures where everybody has a place they need to stay in
being linked to
ideas about how best to structure our families
to ideas about men being superior to women
being linked to biological maleness being linked to understandings of what it means to be a man and biological femaleness being linked to understandings of what it means to be a woman
being linked to the idea that those who are born bearing cunts should identify as "woman" and those who are born bearing cocks should identify as "man"
to ideas about whose voices should boom and occupy space and whose voices should chime and be hardly, if ever, heard.
to ideas about a natural biol0gical gender based order of things handed down from that nasty ole jealous, simple, violent, insecure triad of personalities containing the unfucked bio incubator of the zombie carpenter and the invisible yet all powerful phallic gawd
to ideas about women being the property of men
to ideas about children birthed to a woman being the property of their male progenitors
to ideas about women needing to keep their fucking thighs shut if they're going to be understood as nice and clean
to women being constructed as low class gutter trash if they don't find one man and stay with him
to men having to be sure that any children a woman bears being understood as property
to ideas about what a woman does if she wants to be liked meaning understood as suitable enough to be understood as potential property
to ideas about who is attractive and why it is that a woman must make sure to be seen as smiling, compliant, accommodating and fucking nice at all times
to women as those whose transgressions can smear whole families, whole communities
to ideas about the salvation of whole communities, whole peoples resting on women maintaining easily verifiable sexual social and familial bonds with men who are understood to own them
being linked to ideas sex as equated with heterosexual wedded procreation validated by the phallic desert god head and his dead son and his unfucked and orgasmically deprived and miserable mother
to same gendered sex and affection being a threat to the very foundation of the family, the community, the nation and the world
to ideas about what it means to have established oneself, one's family and one's community
to ideas about who is better off and who is lowly and common class
to the idea that some human beings, their families, their communities, their values, their religions and their way of just generally running things are better than other human beings' approaches to these very same things...
And many of us, lefty or no, understand that this system, an interlocked web of power and domination is really the only way to move. You gotta fit yourself into this somewhere somehow...E, tven if you lie and say that you really wanna change up everything, this is understood by most, by many as the only game in town.
Find and know your place. Even if you happen to be one of the afore mentioned denizens of this land, even if you are a descendant of the kidnap victims union, you still are expected to find your place and willingly occupy it...even if you have to lie and bleed internally, bite the insides of your own mouth, bite your tongue repeatedly...for the rest of your life, just find your place and know it and never forget it.
Because the others who have been told the same thing, who believe that finding their place in the midst of this mess is what they were put on the planet to do, are watching you.
And if they see that you haven't found your place, don't know your place, don't have a place in all this mess of interlocking rules and rituals, they will realize and will expect others to realize that you're insane, you're nasty, you're stupid, you're unemployable, you're not cool, you're ugly.
And if people around you start understanding you in any of these ways they will give it to you by deciding to understand you as a threat. They will decide to understand you as a nessary target. They will make sure that you are uncomfortable. They will decide to give you nothing but the lowest paying jobs. They will make sure that you, your children, your family starve and that everyone understands that it's your own fault.
They will talk to you about wanting to save you which either means put you in the crazy house, in jail, or working at a McDonalds drive thru cleanin' the employee latrine.
In any case, if you don't take a hint and start trying harder to fit in, eventually they will explain to you as they come and kidnap your children, that you're in serious danger. Which will leave you feeling uncertain and wondering if you're hearing voices or talking to yourself. And once people realize that you're snapping, cracking, zig zagging rather than flying straight, flying right, they're gonna pull away. They will isolate you and call it your social alienation. Soon, you'll start feeling depressed. You might even end up being suicidal or substance addicted...if you weren't already.
And once you are, you will have a hard time ensuring your own survival, let alone the survival of your children, your family's survival, your community's survival.
Which takes us to Mr. Henry Louis Gates. I still haven't read the link that SecondWaver sent me. I just can't. The little I glanced at was seriously disturbing.
But I think he mentioned something about there being two groups of black people. Two classes?
Two different communities of black people? Not a spider webbed collectivity with various facets, layers and hierarchies all occupying continuums of shared history, herstory, experience and oppression, linked in some areas, pushed apart at other points?
The well paid academic, the well educated academic says there are two separating distinct groupings.
I said to papi that if Gates can theorize away the direct experiential, causal and social relational links between poor, working, middle and upper class blacks (Condi isn't from the lower middle class suburbs of washington, yo) then the black middle class aren't really related to the roiling masses of the black underclass.
All together now! Black middle class? Gimme a big, collective sigh of relief.And if the Black middle class aren't directly related to the others, if they actually have more in common with the white middle class, then the privileges of the black middle class aren't derived from the oppression of the black working and poor classes...
In the ways that the privileges and power of the white middle class are derived from the suffering of black people and people of colour in general, poor and working class black people and people of colour and poor and working class white.
And if this is the case, then the Black middle class is free and clear. They arose from the salt foamed sea on a fucking half shell. They ain't hurt nobody, looked down on nobody, dusted off their clothes and straightened their ties in order to not be associated with nobody. Their hands are clean, not bloodied, stained with the blood of their disowned, disassociated other selves living in some tenement slum crack house.
I know they feel a certain responsibility to try and help those poor people who they remember because these folks have been, for some strange reason, left back, to suffer and to wallow in the old, poor neighbourhoods.
"Why that person out in the road, eyes wild, half dressed trying to lean up on that man's car askin' for a dollar fi'ty? Why can't they just clean themselves up, get a job, go talk to god in his house, use HUD to get a house, meet a nice, clean woman, have a couple of kids, settle down, stay faithful, have mediocre sex with that same person for the rest of their lives and just act respectable? Like us!"Which is what I think Mr. Seriously Misled Gates Jr. and many other black folks I keep encountering online are trying to say about how Black people will finally be redeemed and saved from eternal damnation:
We've just got to be more patriarchal, heterosexual, monogamous, god fearin', baby havin', married and nice. Living together just isn't enough! If you don't buy in fully, you won't reap the benefits of living in this (stolen, bloodied, abused, poisoned) land of plenty!Descendants of slaves were taught that doing all this would raise us up in the eyes of those who bought us, fucked the wimmin, fucked the men, forced the mothers to fuck the sons, forced the uncles to fuck the nieces, forced everyone to go to church and pray to the white patriarchal god, bought, sold and tortured human flesh and felt that they were the arbiters of what it meant to be proper human beings.
And so, with this in mind, with the fact that the idea of patriarchal, romantic, heterosexual, monogamous, wedded love as the one and only saviour of black people firmly nestled as a perpetually vomit inducing irritant in my mind...
I now present to you since the proposal...
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