in terms of connections to wimmin, i don't actually date wimmin right now. it doesn't make total sense for me in terms of how my identities are shifting...
having said that, if you (a woman) come and read me here and suspect that you would be capable of engaging in ways that challenge not reify wimmin's patriarchally socialized and dominated ways of speaking, engaging, interacting indirectly, passive aggressively, competitively, fake smilingly, fearfully, hesitantly, self-doubtingly, ingratiatingly, accommodatingly, hierarchically, "nicely"...
if what you just read doesn't piss you off and make you want to "teach me a lesson", doesn't make you want to show me, prove me wrong, doesn't make you want to let me know that you're not scared'a me, doesn't make you want to let me know that you're just as "angry" or "aggressive" or "mean" or "bitchy" or "diva" or "kewl", "smart" or "wordy" or as much of an "outsider" or as "crazy" as i am...
in short, if what you read doesn't intimidate you, confuse you, enrage you, threaten you, fill you with the need to worship, collect, absorb, eliminate or compete with me, doesn't fill you with an urge to draw closer so as to better learn from me while bringing nothing of use that will nurture, teach, fill, stimulate or embolden me as i continue to grow, mature, expand and seek...
if you feel none of this when you read me, but instead you merely find yourself nodding with understanding and perhaps at different points, in agreement, filled with a (non denial or ego based) sense of having encountered kindred then...*shrug* who knows? you could give me a try. we could hit it off. stranger things of happened.
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Big tweak! :)
I tweaked it again. Added one of the most necessary bits of information. Actually something that has been holding me back for years now. It's in red. :)
Oh I nixxed the red and just did a whole new post with all my additions up above.
Verrry nice ... but any chance of eliminating that first sentence? Ah well, a true "potential" won't be put off. Lookin good!
Oh, now if I did that, I would be letting them believe that I'm actively looking...which I'm not. I'm more putting out there, since my profile does get female visitors from time to time, that I have not completely ruled out the possibility...if someone stellar (in the ways I understand stellar) was to come along. If I said I was actively looking, then I'd be fielding messages from a whole bunch of folks that I wouldn't be interested in entertaining or in giving attention to. But yeah...the one up above (I think that's the one you read, cuz it's the most recently updated) pretty much says it for me. I'll keep you posted about whether anyone workable and interesting comes a'callin'. :)
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